Today I put away all the strawberry jam that I made yesterday. We have been using store bought jam (yuck!) since we ran out of last years supply. We are so happy to have delicious jam once again! As I made the jam I remembered back to my jam making experience three years ago. Richard had been in the hospital for a full week because of pulmonary embolisms (blood clots in his lungs). It was exactly 3 years ago today that he went in....Friday the 13th of April. It was a terrible week and on my way home from the hospital one night with the kids I got in a car accident. My mom had also just found out that her cancer had returned. I remember the day after he was released from the hospital I thought I could make jam. I had bought the strawberries but had no food processor. I also wanted to get some spring yard work done, but Richard was unable to do anything. My house was also a disaster and I was overwhelmed. My sister, Heather, just happened to drive up from St. George that day and stopped by my house on a whim. I had no idea she was coming and I remember as soon as I saw her on my doorstep I started bawling. She went to my Mom and Dads and told them how I was feeling. That afternoon, Heather and my Mom and Dad came to the rescue. Heather cleaned my bathrooms, my Dad mowed the lawn and my Mom trimmed the hedges and raked out all the flower beds. My parents also decided they needed a new food processor anyway and gave me their old one so I could make jam. I was so grateful for their service, even though I felt like a charity case. I thought about that day a lot as I made jam. I thought of my sweet Mom who had just found out about her cancer and still came to my aid. I thought of the times I helped my mom use that food processor in her kitchen as my own little Emma helped me make jam. It's been 6 months since my Mom died and it feels like 6 years. Like my brother Dave said, it does not get easier with time. I'm so grateful for her glorious example, but I never imagined I could miss her so much.
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